Recursive thoughts don't fill up my mind as much as they used to. It takes me far less time to come to a resolution about things without over-thinking, replaying, etc.
Anyway, throughout the week, which was difficult on a lot of levels (hormonally, vocationally, relationally), I somehow came to have clarity around the situation: I don't have to choose work I don't want to do. I can take this opportunity to find another place to expand my influence, and I don't have to kill myself doing it. There are options, and even if I have to work three jobs, and even if one of them is in a service industry, we will survive, and I will enjoy the diversity of the week and the time it allows me to be present with my family and friends.
In approaching change this time, I have more resources available and I am more aware. This will allow me to not drive everyone mad while moving through the transition.